THIS GIVEAWAY IS NOW CLOSED.
[I actually wrote this post last week, but it got preempted by the Before I Wake cover reveal. I’m sorry for the delay.
Also, at the end of the Q&A you’ll find this week’s foreign edition giveaway.]
You asked, and now the Hudson boys have spoken. Nash and Tod have each chosen five questions to answer. And, for the record, I didn’t let them dodge any of the hard questions. You’re welcome.
The spoiler Qs and As are written in white. To read them, highlight the text. But please, if you haven’t read If I Die, DO NOT highlight below. Even if you’ve already heard some spoiler rumors. You’ll ruin the story for yourself. Trust me.
Okay, here goes…
Lina: At some point, you stopped being sad for Tod’s death and actually started being MAD at him. When did that happen, and why?
Nash: It was a gradual process. At first, I was sad, and I felt guilty. I mean, he never would have been on the road at all that night, if not for me. But then…well, it’s kind of hard to mourn someone who won’t stay dead. Tod didn’t rest in peace. He rested in my room. And at my school. And in front of my TV. Even when I couldn’t see him, I could feel him. He was always there, like he was haunting me. Or spying on me. Bossing me around from beyond the grave. I just wanted him to go away and let me live my life my own way. But when I finally got mad enough to tell him that, he got all hostile and stopped letting me see him. He never really left, though. I could still feel him.
Mtr: Why didn’t you do more to stop Sabine from interfering with your relationship (ie. antagonizing Kaylee and blatantly trying to get back together with you) even though you knew it bothered Kaylee?
Nash: In case you haven’t noticed, Sabine is very strong-willed. There wasn’t much else I could do, other than tell her to go away, and I didn’t want her to go away. I needed a friend, and so did she. Yes, Sabine is abrasive and painfully honest, but she’s also fiercely loyal, and insightful, and resourceful. And if I’ve learned anything in the past few months, it’s that you can’t change people. You have to accept them as they are, or not at all. Kaylee and Sabine had to work their issues out on their own. There was just no other way that could go.
Sonz: If you can save only one person who would u save, Kaylee or Sabine?
Nash: That question has more potential to drive me insane than any other question in the world. Ever. I hope I never have to make that choice.
Alisa: When Sabine brought you back from the police station and you saw Kaylee, and Emma told you how Kaylee just died what went through your mind?
Nash: I really don’t remember. That whole day is a blur of anger and confusion. And betrayal. Did I mention the betrayal? Nothing really sank in for a while afterward.
Teaspa05: Is there a chance at a reconciliation with Tod?
Nash: I’m not stupid enough to say no. I can’t predict the future. But I don’t see that happening any time soon. I haven’t spoken to him since that day in the hall. I haven’t even seen him since then. I can only assume that means he’s scared to show himself.
Tessa: Did you really love Addison, or was that infatuation?
Tod: Looking back, it was probably neither. But I didn’t know that at the time. I’ve learned a lot, about a lot of different things since Addy and I were together. That was years ago. And I’ve learned even more since she died. Everything looks different now.
Megan: Do you really think that Sabine could be better for Nash than Kaylee?
Tod: Yes, though that may not have been my only motivation for speaking the truth. Still, my point stands. If I thought Nash and Kaylee were good for one another, I would have…made different choices. But nothing would have changed what went down between me and Thane. That bastard deserved what he got.
Katherine: When you first saw Kaylee you seemed to be irritated/annoyed by her presence, why is this?
Tod: At the time, I’d been dead for more than two years, and hadn’t spoken to anyone but my own family and my fellow reapers in all that time. My social skills were…rusty. I didn’t recognize Kaylee then. I was irritated because I was dead, and I thought my brother had come to rub that in by parading another pretty girl in front of me–evidence that his life was moving forward, and mine never would. I was wrong. That doesn’t happen very often, but I’ve never been happier to admit how wrong I was about anything. That day changed my whole afterlife.
Tori: Is it possible that you could have saved Kaylee if you didn’t walk in on her and Nash and just let them have sex? Mr. Beck did want a pure soul, so wouldn’t it make sense that if you let Nash sleep with her, she wouldn’t be pure, so he wouldn’t want her soul, right?
Tod: Kaylee will always be a pure soul. No matter what she does with anyone. But to answer your question, no. Death can’t be stopped. The cause can be changed, and sometimes the timing can be altered, but in the end, Death is one of very few certainties in life. Also, I have no regrets about my awesome timing. And my timing really is awesome.
Haylo: Do you love Kay more than your own brother, you died for? Or could you let her go for him and her, to have them back each other?
Tod: It’s not that simple. First of all, I don’t know how to quantify love. That’s not the kind of thing that can be measured in quarts and gallons. I don’t have words strong enough to tell you how much I love either of them, and that’s not the kind of thing one brother usually tells the other anyway. All I can do is try to show them both what they mean to me. That’s the way it’s always been. The hard part is when showing one means hurting the other.
The second part of your question is even less simple. It’s not a question of me letting her go–Kaylee makes her own choices, and I wouldn’t want it any other way. Beyond that, what happened between me and Kaylee isn’t what went wrong with her and Nash. He would have forgiven her for what he saw. He still will forgive her. Either way, I’m not what’s standing between them, no matter what he thinks.
Okay, thanks for all the questions! Now for this week’s foreign edition giveaway. To enter the giveaway, in THIS POST, tell me what book/s you received as gifts during the holidays. Or what you wish you’d received. Or what books you gave.
Click here to see a list of the available books, but do NOT leave your entry in the prize list comments.